Motivation...where for art thou!?

Okay seriously...I'm getting concerned.  I have no motivation....to do anything.  I used to be one of those people who could get a lot done in a short amount of time.  Now I'm that person that can barely get anything done in a lot of time!  I'm having a hard time.  I don't know if is all that has gone on in my life within the last six months, the environment I'm in, or if I'm just becoming that lazy person I feared I could be.  I know we all have our days when we don't want to do anything, but I've now strung days into weeks and weeks into months.  I read Facebook posts of friends who are doing, getting things done and I'm envious....but then I sit and don't do anything.  I don't want to do homework, or laundry, or workout, or do crafts.  I mostly want to sit and watch TV...well TV shows on DVD.

I'm not really sure where the girl who was always so busy is but I wish she would return.  And what reallly scares me is not that she left but that I don't know HOW to get her back.  Why am I so unmotivated to do the things that once brought me pleasure.  Now the only pleasure I get is rotting out my brain.

My brother just gave me a sheet of really great quotes, how fitting since I'm writint this.  A couple that really struck me where.

"You are what you repeatedly doo.  Excellence is not an event - it is a habit"  ~ Aristotle

I repeatedly do nothing but watch TV, so how do I get back my habits I once had, so that I can be excellent once again?  Maybe I don't need to get back the old ones but find new ones.  I just wish I knew how.  I look at my to do list every day and feel daunted by it.  Perhaps it's time to return to meditation....prayer.  Maybe I need to hand this over to someone else and be guided that way.  Maybe I need to read "Seven Habits again. 

"Obstacles don't have to stop you.  If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up.  Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work arount it" ~ Michael Jackson

Music

I'm always amazed at how music can resonate a time in our lives, an event, a person.  Sometimes it's just the sound that mirrors what we feel or sometimes it's the lyrics that mean everything.  I've always loved music and how it can do this.  It can even change our mood.  It's powerful.  There are also times that we just love a song.  I just got the Florence + the Machine Lungs album and I LOVE it.  Love the singers voice, the sounds of the music, and the lyrics are exquisite.  I've never been good at expressing my feelings in a conversation with someone as Glenn can attest to but songs can say everything that you feel in the best possible way.  A couple songs that I am also loving right now for many reasons is Gotye: Somebody That I Used to Know, Florence + the Machine: No Light, No Light, and Imagine Dragons: It's Time (this one I love not so much for the lyrics, but the sound.)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8UVNT4wvIGY


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HGH-4jQZRcc&ob=av2e


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sENM2wA_FTg&ob=av2e


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iWOyfLBYtuU


I love when I find new music.  It can be like finding treasure.  One other wonderful thing about music, is it can bring people together.  Right now my son is at that age were he wants nothing to do with me and thinks that I'm about the most un-cool person on the planet....until we listen to music.  I love when he gets in the car and tells me he wants me to hear a song, plays it for me, and then anxiously awaits for me to say I like it.  Music is an avenue that we can still connect on.

"All good music resembles something. Good music stirs by its mysterious resemblance to the objects and feelings which motivated it. "

Jean Cocteau