Okay seriously...I'm getting concerned. I have no motivation....to do anything. I used to be one of those people who could get a lot done in a short amount of time. Now I'm that person that can barely get anything done in a lot of time! I'm having a hard time. I don't know if is all that has gone on in my life within the last six months, the environment I'm in, or if I'm just becoming that lazy person I feared I could be. I know we all have our days when we don't want to do anything, but I've now strung days into weeks and weeks into months. I read Facebook posts of friends who are doing, getting things done and I'm envious....but then I sit and don't do anything. I don't want to do homework, or laundry, or workout, or do crafts. I mostly want to sit and watch TV...well TV shows on DVD.
I'm not really sure where the girl who was always so busy is but I wish she would return. And what reallly scares me is not that she left but that I don't know HOW to get her back. Why am I so unmotivated to do the things that once brought me pleasure. Now the only pleasure I get is rotting out my brain.
My brother just gave me a sheet of really great quotes, how fitting since I'm writint this. A couple that really struck me where.
"You are what you repeatedly doo. Excellence is not an event - it is a habit" ~ AristotleI repeatedly do nothing but watch TV, so how do I get back my habits I once had, so that I can be excellent once again? Maybe I don't need to get back the old ones but find new ones. I just wish I knew how. I look at my to do list every day and feel daunted by it. Perhaps it's time to return to meditation....prayer. Maybe I need to hand this over to someone else and be guided that way. Maybe I need to read "Seven Habits again.
"Obstacles don't have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work arount it" ~ Michael Jackson
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